Stronger?
That's a word I've been contemplating lately.
So, here's a long story in a few short words:
I have a problem. Years on end, I've been hunting, searching, looking for something it seems everyone has.. someone else. Not just a friend or sibling, but a significant other... a boyfriend. I'm in no hurry NO grow up (Lord and everyone else knows I still watch Nick toons and Disney movies XD) but for some reason I've always had this aching pain to be with someone.... just once.
I just turned 17 and never had a boyfriend. Not that it's really a big deal in retrospect, but what gets me, is how unique my story seems to be.
There are PLENTY of teen girls out there who's in the same boat as me. All 3 of my best friends (who are girls) have boyfriends right now. I know you're saying "Hmm sounds familiar, how is this story "unique"?" Well... most girls who have been in the boat HAVE had at LEAST one guy like them before (weather or not they liked him back), whereas, I have not. Not ONE. I've had crushes since 2nd grade, and not a one has ever liked me back in THAT way. If they did, atleast, they never told anyone. I mean, it's not like I'm ugly or anything! I mean, look at my photo.. am I really that bad-looking? Of course not! I'm no beauty queen, but I'm pretty beautiful, I know that.
So, my looks aren't the problem. Actually it's not me at all. Not at all. It's the boys I'm liking.
It's strange how the more boys I like, the closer to my personality they are. It's like the first few boys I liked would of never worked with my personality. We were waaaay too different, but being in elementary school, I wouldn't even notice!
The last 4 guys that struck my interest, I liked because of their personalities and the similarities between mine and theirs.
The last one expecially. I've actually never met a guy who's personality was so close to mine.
You know, I think that maybe God is showing me something... maybe He's saying...
"I'm going to send you a guy like this, only BETTER! This one's just a prototype. A sample. You'll get the REAL prize later :)"
Or maybe the last guy I've like recently IS the one.. maybe God could be saying somthing like
"Yes. He IS the one for you... BUT NOT NOW. He needs to grow up, hurt a little bit, learn to accept somethings and then I'll bring you to back together."
Maybe it's neither XD Who knows but God? :)
You know I really need to stop XD I keep trying to interprate what God is doing, when really, no one can do that!
I just need to shut up, sit back, and enjoy the ride! XD
I'm so much stronger, now I guess XD I mean, it's like the more guys I like, the more closer to my 'dream guy' I get, but if I was rejected by the last few guys I liked two or 3 years ago, I would of went CRAZY! XD
Strangely, now, though, I'm more prone to just shrugging it off, and moving on.
I guess it's like Mandisa saids:
"When the waves are takin' you under, hold on just a little bit longer, He knows that this is gonna make you stronger. The pain ain't gonna last forever, and things will only get better, believe me, this is GONNA MAKE YOU STRONGER :)"
Also:
"The longer you stand in the rain, the more you'll appreciate the sunshine(when it finally comes) :)"
