When God makes something "bad" happen, or you get a moment of bad luck. Maybe something doesn't go the way you planned, or it goes WAAAAAAY off course... whatever the story, natural human reaction is to ask one thing: "WHY?! D:" We beg and wonder, asking God why He did what He has done...guess what? DO NOT ASK. Do not ask God "WHY?!". Usually you won't know why. You just have to trust in Him and He'll bring you through. Don't ask God any questions like "Why?" or "Can what I want happen instead?!" ... you just gotta TRUST. If you must ask questions, ask Him what he wants you to learn from the experience. All you know is you are going though it. That's all you need to know. You don't need to know WHY or HOW to control the situation just sit down, shut up, and have faith.
Goodness... I wish I would of just had faith and trusted in God's choices for me, instead of asking that dreaded question of WHY? -_-
I'm naturally curious and I'm also a control freak, so I like to know what's going on, and the reasons for it.
So, what does this have to do with me?
**I'm not using the REAL names of the ppl btw :|**
I have a best friend. Let's call her Lilly. She hooked up with this guy and he became her boyfriend. Then, I met his "best friend". Let's call him... Steve. Lilly and her boyfriend hit it off pretty darn good, and likewise, Steve and I had (a little too much) fun together ^_^ Eventually I got a crush on this Steve.
Being silly girls, we automatically got the setup in our minds of the whole "two-sets-of-besties-together" type senerio... the only thing that would of made it cuter, at the time, would be if we were twin girls and twin boys lol
But.. no. It was weird. We all got along so good! Except there was a problem. Steve just happened to have himself a girlfriend already. I backed off, naturally.
For a while it was awkward cause I kind of knew the girl, and she was nice, but she never found out about my liking him.
I tried, like 5 times to forget about him and move on, but I failed....
then one day they broke up! My crush and his girlfriend broke up!
We started talking a little teeny bit more, he even said he "was happier", and I thought it was goin' cool. I thought I had this in the bag... it was all apart of the "plan" I conjured up in my head.. but it was contrary to God's plan.
So. Me and my and Lilly have another "close-ish" friend. We'll name her Ashely. Lilly's boyfriend has a nasty little habit of telling his person secrets to Ashely and not Lilly.
After a couple of months of dating him, Lilly learned that her boyfriend was bi. Of course, I found out too. It didn't make me or Lilly none-too-happy, but we shrugged it off. Figured.... "Ehh, what they heck, it's not like he makes passes at guys or anything." And kind of forgot about the matter.
Meanwhile, I just became more and more confused at all the "drama". It seemed like Lilly and her boyfriend were matched up pretty good, and me and Steve seemed PERFECT for one another....Steve was single, so what's the prob?!
Actually, Steve kind of knew I kind of liked him. Rejected being a strong word, he more... declined my request all because I am a go-hard christian basically.
That should of been enough for me. I should of just took that sorry excuse for a rejection, shoved it up his butt, slapped his face and keep on walkin' forward, no lookin' back.
But do I? OF COURSE NOT!! I believe in second chances, so I gave him one.
We seem to had built a pretty good rapport, and it confused me.
Many Many MANY times I prayed...usually sounding like this: "It seems like everything is perfectly matched up. All the ducks were in a row, each person has someone.... but God WHY won't he just give in?! WHY doesn't Steve like me?! WHY won't Steve just give me a chance?!"
Hmm...many times I also prayed: "God, show me the way. Show me if this is going to work or if I am just wastin' my sweet time. God, please give me a sign."
Be careful what you pray for D:
Instead of sitting back, trusting God, or just believing that me and Steve are apart for a reason, I went and asked WHY. Why was it that all this was happening?
God did hear my prayer, cause He knows me, and we all know curiosity killed that cat.
God knew I wouldn't stop my whining and constant asking of "WHY?!"... so He made a point to actually SHOW me why.
I should of just took the fate and ran, but no... I just HAD to know why....
So, why? Why didn't God let me be with this guy who seemed oh-so-perfecto for me?
Simple.
Lilly's boyfriend told Ashely. He just told her flat out him and Steve.... they did things.... you know.... things. Gay things..... relations....more than once....
Oh Good golly sweet sugar honey ice tea.....
Even worse, Lilly's boyfriend told Ashely he was willing to let Steve in on him and Lilly's relationship O.O
Well... a good couple of hours later I'm still seeing.... images in my mind...
But it's ok.....
Gahhh Life....At least I've learned my lesson. I'm gonna NEVER ask God "WHY?!" again XD
Happy Friday the 13th? XD
